Nothing is simple

Well, nothing is simple in my life. I manage to complicate things every few months. Latest complication? I've been offered a new job (the job I wrote about awhile back). I didn't really think I would be offered the job, so now I just have no idea what to do. I keep waiting for some great insight or something, but nothing is coming. I know I should make a list, but... that always seems to me to be a very artifical way of making a decision that includes elements that can never be recorded on a list. I just keep trying to think about how it all feels--does it feel right, does it feel wrong, where do I think I sould be professionally, where do I think I should be presonally...? And I get a different answer to each of those questions. I'm starting to think that my only course of action here might just have to be inaction--a decision to not change anything right now. I mean, could I really handle another change anyway? Can I take that kind of upheaval? Or if I make a change now, will that lead to more stability?

And I can't get over the fact that they actually want to hire me. I mean, I feel like I just pulled a fast one on these folks. Don't they realize how completely clueless and unqualified I really am?